Wake me up from this bad dream

Goodmorning sayang! :) Its New Year's Eve and you're about to leave. I guess today's the last day for me to spend time with you before you say goodbye. I can all dramatic at times but I wont be seeing you for three months. What kind of girlfriend would I be if I'm not sad? I love you with all my heart. I cherish every moment when I'm with you.

I could be such a tool at times, hihi sorry baby. Remember our deal? Cover up your face when you get there, wear a mask or something! And that's a must ok. You are not allowed to flirt with other girls or even look at them...ok fine you can make friends there. But you gotta have limits, baby. But just like you said " its only 3 months". But things change, people change. But I hope when you get back, we would still be the same. I believe in faith, I trust you sayang. I trust you. I love you.

I know this post is not a really long post like I promised it would be but, I mean everything I say. I would sacrifice almost everything for you. But the faster you go, the faster it ends. I'll be here waiting for you to come home. Like I said, I'm going to be your hardest goodbye. And your sweetest hello. I love you Muhammad Aniq Zanudin, only you. Have a safe trip sayang.
Sincerely, your girlfriend.

Lover by day.

Hi baby, this is me invading on your blog. First of all, I would like to say that I love you with all my heart. And nothing in this world would ever cross my mind to leave you. Okay now, I'm gonna tell you a little fairytale of mine. Once upon a time,

I met this young boy. Well thats another story. I'll cut it short, I don't know how but we became bestfriends. And he called me his FLBF (First Love Best Friend). He said that ' I've never had a girl bestfriend before ' So I was proud to be his number one girl. Even if I was only his bestfriend. I never thought that I would actually date this monkey. He's the most weirdest guy I've ever met.

Now, I was really shocked when you confessed. But somehow deep down inside I had that same feeling. I just ugh. I just couldn't tell you. So I refused to respond to your actions. You've done a great job, you've been taking care of me. And it has been quite awhile. You have always been my shoulder to cry on. Any girl would be so lucky to date you. But too bad you're mine now.

The reason why I'm writting this is to cheer you up? I'm hoping that this essay or maybe an apology blog would cheer you up. I know I've messed up a few times and you were the one who had to put up with my damn slack all the time. I'm still working on this attitude of mine. Sorry sayang. I'm trying to put my ego aside for you. Its just that my temper, its all over the place.

Sayang, I'm sorry for everything I've done. I haven't been a very good girlfriend. But just so you know, I'm very happy. I'm extremely happy with you. I won't make any promises and say that I'll never repeat what I did again. No promises. No. Promises are meant to be broken. But I can assure you, that I'm trying my best to make you happy.

I love you, Aniq.