I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how I feel, like how I miss you and how I love you despite my broken heart and how I need you in my life and especially how much I want you but those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know - tumblr

Wake me up from this bad dream

Goodmorning sayang! :) Its New Year's Eve and you're about to leave. I guess today's the last day for me to spend time with you before you say goodbye. I can all dramatic at times but I wont be seeing you for three months. What kind of girlfriend would I be if I'm not sad? I love you with all my heart. I cherish every moment when I'm with you.

I could be such a tool at times, hihi sorry baby. Remember our deal? Cover up your face when you get there, wear a mask or something! And that's a must ok. You are not allowed to flirt with other girls or even look at them...ok fine you can make friends there. But you gotta have limits, baby. But just like you said " its only 3 months". But things change, people change. But I hope when you get back, we would still be the same. I believe in faith, I trust you sayang. I trust you. I love you.

I know this post is not a really long post like I promised it would be but, I mean everything I say. I would sacrifice almost everything for you. But the faster you go, the faster it ends. I'll be here waiting for you to come home. Like I said, I'm going to be your hardest goodbye. And your sweetest hello. I love you Muhammad Aniq Zanudin, only you. Have a safe trip sayang.
Sincerely, your girlfriend.

Lover by day.

Hi baby, this is me invading on your blog. First of all, I would like to say that I love you with all my heart. And nothing in this world would ever cross my mind to leave you. Okay now, I'm gonna tell you a little fairytale of mine. Once upon a time,

I met this young boy. Well thats another story. I'll cut it short, I don't know how but we became bestfriends. And he called me his FLBF (First Love Best Friend). He said that ' I've never had a girl bestfriend before ' So I was proud to be his number one girl. Even if I was only his bestfriend. I never thought that I would actually date this monkey. He's the most weirdest guy I've ever met.

Now, I was really shocked when you confessed. But somehow deep down inside I had that same feeling. I just ugh. I just couldn't tell you. So I refused to respond to your actions. You've done a great job, you've been taking care of me. And it has been quite awhile. You have always been my shoulder to cry on. Any girl would be so lucky to date you. But too bad you're mine now.

The reason why I'm writting this is to cheer you up? I'm hoping that this essay or maybe an apology blog would cheer you up. I know I've messed up a few times and you were the one who had to put up with my damn slack all the time. I'm still working on this attitude of mine. Sorry sayang. I'm trying to put my ego aside for you. Its just that my temper, its all over the place.

Sayang, I'm sorry for everything I've done. I haven't been a very good girlfriend. But just so you know, I'm very happy. I'm extremely happy with you. I won't make any promises and say that I'll never repeat what I did again. No promises. No. Promises are meant to be broken. But I can assure you, that I'm trying my best to make you happy.

I love you, Aniq.

girl, dont change

You're my bestfriend, my companion, through good times and bad, through happy and sad, beside me you stand, beside me you walk, you're there to listen, you're there to talk, with happiness, with smiles, with pain and tears, I know you'll be there, thats why you're my bestfriend ♥

dear :)

Dear, hearing your voice brings peaceful comfort and a smile to my face at the mere thought of you. My heart beats for you alone, my darling! When our eyes locked for the very first time, you rendered me breathless. As each moment passes us by, I feel myself drawn more closely to you. My heart soars blissfully when I am with you. In your absence, I close my eyes and dream of your close embrace, our fingers combine with mine ♥

Im nothing without You and You're nothing without Me :')

hi , Im Aniq , Im still not Your everything and think I cant think why arent you falling for Me but I think You'll fall for Me , love Me . I think You and I have to sit together because You and I have to think about something . You and I must not think about the past bcs I think when You're with Me You're the Everything , and without Me you're Nothing . so I think this time is the greatest time to think about You and I " together " because when You're not with Me , You're nothing . so yeah , be with Me . think with Me . just think , and be with Me !

catch me because im falling ;')

I know I shouldn't start this , but there is no change to turn back time . I don't know what I am looking for since I have everything in my own . Happy life surrounding by my angels . Then in one point I let you in , and I thought I can allow you in just in my mind , because my heart has already full of love of my life . Then time passing by , you gave such a different color in my days , and I dont know when , but then I found you have already occupied small place in my heart . I enjoyed every little chats we have , every little calls , every little messages , definitely I enjoy everything about you . Thinking about you in my busy days is a nice thing to do . It is very tempting for me showering you with all attentions that I can . When I missed you , my heart is full of happiness and sadness in the same time , remembering our last meet , looked deeply into your eyes , i felt such a soft warm feeling flowing into my heart . I know you'll never be mine , not because you don't want me or I don't want you , but because I've already had a life . And I dont know what I am doing now with you . I just don't want to think about it , all I want is enjoying every seconds I can have with you . Only in that way , I feel I have you . If I have enough courage , then I want you to know , that I am falling for you . I love you . You'll never know how deep you go into my heart . Because for you , maybe it is just for fun since you know from beginning that i cant get you .