catch me because im falling ;')

I know I shouldn't start this , but there is no change to turn back time . I don't know what I am looking for since I have everything in my own . Happy life surrounding by my angels . Then in one point I let you in , and I thought I can allow you in just in my mind , because my heart has already full of love of my life . Then time passing by , you gave such a different color in my days , and I dont know when , but then I found you have already occupied small place in my heart . I enjoyed every little chats we have , every little calls , every little messages , definitely I enjoy everything about you . Thinking about you in my busy days is a nice thing to do . It is very tempting for me showering you with all attentions that I can . When I missed you , my heart is full of happiness and sadness in the same time , remembering our last meet , looked deeply into your eyes , i felt such a soft warm feeling flowing into my heart . I know you'll never be mine , not because you don't want me or I don't want you , but because I've already had a life . And I dont know what I am doing now with you . I just don't want to think about it , all I want is enjoying every seconds I can have with you . Only in that way , I feel I have you . If I have enough courage , then I want you to know , that I am falling for you . I love you . You'll never know how deep you go into my heart . Because for you , maybe it is just for fun since you know from beginning that i cant get you .

" I need a guy yg boleh fhm i , bukan aniq . But org lain . " - August 8 at 5:30pm

awesome ey ? :)

10/8/10

PRINCESS , you may have thought , in the last few days , that you had forever missed out on that life with me . That was not true . If at any time , you boldly stepped forward and stated that you wanted nothing more than a lifetime of love with me , you would have received a seemingly unending hug and a shoulder wet with my tears . Instead , you have made some relationship decisions that have troubled me . You are a good and trusting person , but I think you are also vulnerable due to the unresolved sorrows in your life . I am saddened that my love wasn’t able to do more to heal your wounded heart . It appears our relationship has dwindled down to a one way conversation via SMS -.- Although you may read them , I feel they don’t really reach you .  It has been very disheartening to be pushed out of your life for the sake of a rebound relationship with one of the walking wounded in the battles for love . I thought I accounted for more in your life . So , this is goodbye . I will miss you Princess , just as I have in every moment in the last 2 days that I have been away from you . My heart was never really satisfied unless I was holding you in my arms . I have loved loving you and being loved by you . You have grabbed hold of my love and embraced it like no one else ever has .
Please give me a call when life allows you to enjoy a warm hug , a good meal and one of our loving heart-to-heart talks on the couch . I will look forward to that day . If it ever comes .

7/8/10

Well , just for a moment , before I sign off for the evening , I would like to be serious and talk to you a bit . Usually every evening , we are able to talk . Sometimes , although disappointing when it happens , our time together can only be for a few minutes due to one of us being busy with other aspects of our lives . Then , there are the special times when we have the opportunity to spend the entire evening together and talk the night away . I have to admit that those are the  times I really love the best <3 I love being with you and sharing everything that matters with you . You always make me feel very special . I spent a lot of time thinking of a way that I could say goodnight a little differently and yet make it special . When I heard this song , I knew this would be the perfect way to express the way I feel , say goodnight , and bring a smile to your face . Making you smile , is the best possible way I can think of to end an evening with you when saying goodnight is sometimes so difficult to do . And now it seems to be that time again . Its time to say goodnight and get ready for a busy day tomorow . But this time , I will leave you with a smile . As I say " :) " Goodnight my love , sweet dreams and sleep tight my love . May tomorrow be sunny and bright and bring you closer to me . iloveyou <3