25/2/10

I told myself that God had forgotten me after a lifetime of pain and nights filled with loneliness she had no one for me to love just move on , it will be ok . And then I met you . I knew it was all wrong , but I looked into your beautiful eyes , and I let you in . Into my heart, into my friends , into my life .You gave me hope when I had none , a second chance . You took my hand and let me think about a life with a girl who would love me . Fantasy or foolishness ? this is what i get . It is so rare to find someone to connect with , someone to open up your heart to . When it finally , if ever , comes along , it should be cherished and prized . Love so sweet that the night , under the tree is not long enough for all the memoir's to be shared . I always said that after a lifetime of looking i would know her as soon as i met her . I would know she was the one . Hold on tight and don’t let her go. But then , You learned you were not free , to love , to share , to plan , to care . With each day you pulled farther away . My heart is now hard and filled with pain .You shut me out , pushed me away . This pain is just too much to bear . My heart aches for you . I’m begging , pls go away , i dont wanna see your face anymore , you're not going to be my ' battery ' anymore . When did I become this way? Why did I become this way ? Surely being alone is less painful than the humiliation of crying for a girl who doesn’t want me . Why God why ? Haven’t I cried enough in my lifetime ? What have i done ? so tomorrow is a new day . Springtime . The newness of the season . New beginnings . Just move on. It will be ok . Perhaps someday she will see that maybe I was the one that God sent to her . The guy for her to love , to cherish , to give her hope , to hold her hand . The guy who would never hurt her like the others before . Whose heart has known pain , and would never hurt this guy she loves . But life is all about choices . Let her go , Let her go , and cry for what could have been .Let her go , Let her go , and cry for what will never be . Let her go . Let her go . And be glad , not sad , for the short time we loved each other .

so , thats all for today . thnk you . bbye ihateyou . ciao ciao ciao .