27/2/10

i cant believe what you did . i want to close my eyes . i want to close my eyes . i want to close my eyes , and you just sit there with your friends , smiling ! you should be ashamed at your touch on me , i want to close my eyes . i want to fill the images of you with fire and blacken every thought of you with every ounce of bloodied stomach acid you made me swallow when you waltzed around and smiled like nothing mattered , when you graced me with a kiss you bitch i should have spit in your face and walked away and set that swing on fire so you'd know how it felt to be a few degrees hotter than you'd like with no way out except the rolling down asking for forgiveness . i should have been hateful , i should have been cruel . i want to close my eyes because you repulse me with every word that made me sweat and every move that filled me with love . i hope you grow fat like a hippo , grow old like your granny . i hope your life will be fulled of failure . i hope you never know a touch of happiness . i hope you end up miserable and alone then you'll know how you made me feel then you'll know why i hate you then you'll know what it feels like to kiss the person who has their foot on your throat then you'll know pain , hate , and loneliness , like you never wanted . and before i close my eyes i wanna see you crawl . okay okay , thats all for today bbye , ihateyou . ciao ciao